I'm curious as to when OP's mother's anxiety presented itself. Was it only at night? OP claims she slept with a gun under her pillow, yet during the day she allowed her children to play outside. So is that where OP gets his "anxiety issues" from and why they seem to "present themselves" at night as well? But then why isn't he more concerned with home security? Why "sleep" with balcony doors open, not making sure that the alarm is in proper working order, that his dogs will actually alert him to possible danger, that a broken downstairs window was fixed immediately, that he had bars installed on his windows, that any ladders were securely put up before dark, and that his cars were secured in the garage? His actions seem to be the total opposite of his words.
MOO
.. and let's just remind ourselves of how much OP's mother meant to him (since he managed to throw her under a bus several times throughout the trial so far) .. http://www.dailymail.co.uk/sport/ot...spirational-late-mother-Sheila-Pistorius.html .. terrible, terrible woman she must've been! :facepalm::banghead: