I'm stuck at work this morning with a completely empty office, so ask and ye shall receive. Spelling/ grammar errors are intact, it took every bit of me not to "proofread" it. Here's the
Oct 29th letter. (Mods, if this is too long or needs to be done another way, please let me know :thumb
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I'll do the other one after I finish showering this one off.
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Oct 29, 2010
Dear Casey,
I waited and hoped for a moment of eye contact yesterday, but it never happened. I leaned back and watched you on the T.V. monitor on the wall in the courthouse so I could at least see your face. It's been so long and every moment that I spend away from you a little more of me dies. I feel that as each day passes that you are isolated from me that I can see you slipping away. Don't let this make you into someone that you are not. I know first hand what its done to me. I know its hard not to have your guard up 24/7. I know you're tired of being hurt and disappointed. I know you're tired of being isolated from your loved ones. I know there are days you wish you could fall asleep and not wake up I know! Stay strong but stay true to yourself. Don't let them destroy you. As long as you on to the truth and Know that Jesus is with you, He will protect you from your enemies and He will be the only judge that matters. I love you Casey and because of that love, no matter how rough the day gets for me I find peace in Knowing that you are innocent and the sooner you get out the sooner we can get to the truth about Caylee. She is a constant on my heart and my mind as I know she is on yours. She will never be forgotten and the truth of her disappearance will be my focus until I die. I have barely slept in 2 yrs, and my prayers each night is for answers. God has spoken to me many times and I know that you will be home soon. He's let me see it. 3 times now I've dreamt you were home. I've put my faith in the Lord I've given your situation and Caylee's disappearance to Him to work out. I trust He will!
God has answered one of my prayers after nearly 2 yrs. your dad is finally going to counselling with me. I believe it has helped and he seems committed to going. I hope you are continuing your talks with the Chaplin. Everyone needs an outlet and a safe person to talk to. Many prayers continue to come to you and our family. More and more people are reaching out and professing their support for you. I hope you are still getting positive mail inspite of the States Attys Office erroneous decision to release your letter into discovery. I have to admit it does (deter?) me from writing sometimes.
I could see Judge Perry leaving the door open yesterday once the final decision is made on the other court case. I'm so suprised it hasn't (...) before. The Sunshine law was (...) ballance on rights. I'm enclosing some pics. We've decided that after 18 yrs Horace should be allowed to explore. He doesn't jump anymore past 3 ft so we feel he's safe in the back yard. He loves it. Much for him to see and its good exercise for him. All he does is eat and lay around. The girls keep track of him for us. Hope you enjoy the pick (5).
Grandpa just celebrated his 88th birthday- What a blessing! We had lunch at Golden Corral his favorite. He loved to get out, so once a month we try to get him out. He is doing well, and misses you very much.
He wears Caylee's button and bracelet every day. He still keeps her memorial cards in his pocket. What a blessing she was for him on father's day 2008. I still believe she breathed life into him that day. I'm so glad I didn't lose all three of you that year. Grandma is doing well. She finally came and stayed with us so she could go to the Kids engagement party last Sat. It was her first time back at the house in over 2 yrs. As hard as it was for her I know it was also healing for her. Your other grandparents couldn't come as they have not been feeling well. You were definitely missed as always.
I guess thats all for now. Just know how much you are loved and even though I may not write that often, that I think of you every moment and I talk to you and Caylee everyday. My love for you will never face and my confidence will never waiver.
Love you always and forever,
Mom.