I'm a bit past Ray's age when he went missing.. Hard to believe,but I don't look or feel " old". Most people judge me to be at least 2 decades younger because we don't age like previous generations if we are non-smokers, non- heavy drinkers, and take good care of our skin, hair, teeth and bodies and are free from the traditional diseases of " old age".
Also, there's not a sharp delineation between " young" clothes and " older adult" clothing, hair styles ( or makeup for women) any longer. If a person is trim and fits into slim cut jeans, likely, they wear them some of the weekends. Casual styling has bridged a huge gulf which used to exist in " the look" related to age. Hair styles are not extreme for any age group in his socio-economic group, which is just a bit lower than my socioeconomic group at present, and we mix diamonds and Rolex watches with handmade Nepalese woven beaded bracelets costing a few dollars each. Everything about modern casual styling can be summed up as " eclectic".
OK, most of you are guys, and that paragraph was likely dry as dust for you.
Let me try to liven it up a bit as far as MOTIVATION for leaving goes.
Looking at this from a behavioral psychology standpoint, which I am qualified to do, the age group of the late 50's to early 60's is more like the " middle age" in the higher income brackets among non- minority groups now. Many of my friends ( and myself as well) look at what we've accomplished and what we failed to accomplish, both professionally and in relationships. We have our own " mid life crisis" at times, yes. My mother told me last week she was disappointed that I'd not become an independent nurse practitioner when I was in college. I had to remind her that when I was in nursing school, there was one possible degree and career path and it was " Registered Nurse". No advanced practice acts had been voted into existence in the US except for a very few in extremely disadvantaged areas of the country and the legality was questioned and challenged for about a decade after I'd already been working in ICU.
Ray, being in my current age group, likely had strong impetus to be evaluating both professional life goals and accomplishments and his personal living situation and personal goals. More than likely, as far as we know, he was justifiably satisfied with his professional achievements as he approached retirement.
However, his personal life, like many of us reader sleuths, may have been less than what he wanted for the REST of his life. He could reasonably expect to live 25-30 years longer if he was in the shining excellent health we are told he was in at the time of his disappearance. MAYBE he wanted something exciting and a bit dangerous or maybe a circumstance yet unknown to us propelled him into unfamiliar territory and he was agreeable to the change because he really wasn't leaving a lot behind.
He might have been leaving his retirement, but maybe he wanted Lara to have that amount of money anyway. We don't know!
The retirement fund is always, always used as a reason why he wouldn't leave before his retirement date. But- she was his only direct heir! Maybe he had enough money to live on which we cannot quantify due to his planning strategies and privacy laws in general. Perhaps he had thought long and hard about providing for Lara and her children early, not if/when he died at the age of 90. I think there were other provisions for Patty and Lara as has been stated, likely his life insurance benefits, but I remember my own dad retiring when I was graduating from college and he was in his 50's.
He more or less sat in front of the TV in the family room with Western novels UNTIL the day a bridge contractor called him and asked him to design bridges for a new interstate highway about 50 miles from my parents' hometown.
He was a man energized. I talked to my mother a couple of days ago and she mentioned his official retirement, then this second " career" he was offered and accepted and had a great sense of accomplishment from for the duration of his responsibilities, which was about 5 years. He learned to use computer modeling instead or in addition to hand- drawing meticulous blueprints, to check his structural load calculations with computer- generated statistics for stress failure in different conditions (bridge/ overpass age, traffic average and max. weight, weather, damage from accidents, etc.)
What my daddy had that Ray didn't have was an established family. He had a wife, daughter, and later, a son in law and a grandchild nearby. He was very active in his church and had many very close long term friends.
I don't think Ray had those ties.
Still, when my dad's only very beloved grandson was an infant, Dad took a bus trip out to CA and back " because they had a great senior discount for it". What did he do on his trip? We'll never know, but I'm so glad he had the twinkle in his eye and the roving spirit to leave his beloved family for a couple of weeks and take his own road trip... It was likely the most self- directed thing he'd done since he joined the US Navy in WWII at the age of 17. My mother was the dominant force in their household.
I want to say one thing about the
" irritation" some of his employees seemed to notice before he went missing. There's another emotion which, if it has to be kept under wraps, mimics
" impatience or irritation" very closely.
It's
" anticipation".
Think about it. If you have to HIDE your joyful anticipation of a clandestine plan to walk away from your life to someone whom you really love and want to spend the rest of your life with, but can't say one word to anyone about that person, then you are likely going to be much quieter, much more absentminded- seeming. Maybe short-tempered because of the wait time, maybe just " not in the world he walked in" any longer, but with the person he was going to be with shortly.
We do not believe he left PA with a known PA female, which I don't find strange. In the Internet age, that is, in 2005, people were connecting right and left through the Internet and after long months of chatting via emails and real time internet chats, then maybe phone calls, start dating and start a loving relationship. Only problem was- he was sort of, halfway in a relationship of some sort with Patty.
We don't know what the Patty/ Ray relationship was like for him at the time he disappeared, and we never will, most likely. That's his business. We don't know if they wanted the same things for the rest of their lives. A few road trips is NOT " the rest of their lives" and it isn't a true togetherness, anyway. They may have been " soul mates" if such exists, or they may have been casually living together as the passion had cooled or one of them simply wanted something different or something more.
I believe that Ray wanted something more exciting, passionate, different, and thrilling. Most of my criteria for this belief goes back to the nurse he met and asked for her hand in marriage on first meeting. That is the definition of a very dynamic and impulsive personality.
Because I believe his passions and dynamic personality traits were mostly hidden most of the time due to the staid nature of his profession, I don't think my theory about what he may have done really is understood well, and in the process of someone saying " Nah, he wouldn't have done that"
we may be selling the dynamic and impulsive part of Ray Gricar very short.
I absolutely believe, in the absence of any indication of foul play which is where we have stood for the entire time he's been missing, he left the area to go, pre-arranged and with mutual consent and joyful anticipation, to someone he had re-connected with via the Internet, or a new lover he'd met through the Internet chat rooms.
Why would he do so in secret? 1) There may have been a large age difference. 2) There may have been another difference between he and his waiting lover which would have been viewed as unacceptable by his peers and friends. I do not know what this would have been but there are several things. Even a decades- past " light" criminal record would have been a blight for a DA's friends and associates, I think. If you love someone enough that you don't want to expose them to cruel scrutiny, then you do keep things quiet and you leave your old friends behind and your old places behind. You put the person you love above circumstances. 3) He really may have been distressed by some of the happenings with Emma when their relationship broke up and they divorced. He could have been extremely glad to get away from her, but distressed by some of the things she may have said about him, or done to him that are not known. Likewise, Patty may have shown a spiteful side at times in private and he wanted to avoid the drama.
I would have wanted to avoid the tears and screaming and friends taking sides. In his case, Patty worked right there in the same town's courthouse where he was so well known. Could he have really " dumped her" for someone in, oh, say Chicago, and retained his good reputation? It all depends on who's doing the judging, which is unfair but we do not live in a vacuum, we live among other people who DO judge us.
I think the reason more hasn't been found out about where he went and with whom or to whom is because HE did the leave-taking with a clear destination, and a partner in love and life waiting for him. Obviously, I believe the unknown person had a home, money, possibly even wealth of their own which would become Ray's as well.
My only real question is: Did he leave the USA or not? I've gone back and forth on this because getting out of the country without detection in 2005 would not have been easy and he wasn't seen at any border that we know of.
I'd like to know how it all turned out for him, yes, but not in a voyeuristic or intrusive way.
I've posted on his case from the beginning as well, and in that strange way of armchair sleuths, I've come to care about this man with the Missing: Declared legally deceased" status very much.
I hope dearly that he's had the time of his life for the past 13 years!