I just woke up from a horrible horrible dream. In order to tell you about my dream, I need to tell you something about myself that not many people know.
When I was in my mid 20's, my parents were forcing me to have an arranged marriage. They were abusive my whole life. When I refused to get married, they became so abusive I feared for my life. I walked out of the house one night with nothing but my handbag and have not seen or talked to any famiky member or family friend since. I constantly have nightmares about being in a similar scenario.
So back to my dream, I was telling my mother about Sherin and she didn't care. Instead, my family trick me into going to India so I can have an arranged marriage. I run away from them so I can get back to Australia. I end up in a slum and am barefoot, running through human and animal poop. I find a baby girl crying and alone. I somehow know she has nobody and decide to adopt her. In my dream, I kept telling myself that I'll never raise her like the Mathews did. I then see many many abandoned baby girls. I think back to all the posts I read here about adopted children and wonder how those babies will grow up. It was heartbreaking. A whole bunch of things happened after it and I woke up crying.
Poor little Sherin. I love her even though I don't know her. I wish I could have raised her. She would have been treated like a queen.
It also reminded me of the millions of abandoned babies and children in India. If you walk through any street, you are guaranteed to see atleast one child begging for money. I learned that many of these children have "pimps" that beat them up and torture them. When people with money see this child with broken bones, disabled etc. they feel sorry for them.and give them money. This money then goes back to the pimp.
I'm sorry for not talking about Sherin but I'm really really down right now and need to get this off my chest.
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