Incoming ramblings about handover sheets..
In my opinion, it’s quite clear she was choosing to keep the handover notes, and systematically brought them home from each shift. There have been several instances where she’s had an air of entitlement about her (eg doing things she’s been told by superiors not to). So with the handover notes, she knows she shouldn’t keep them, she may even report someone else for doing it, but for some reason she feels like she is above the rules and somehow justifies to herself that it’s ok for her to have them. Same with her WhatsApp messaging about patients.
I don’t find the Ibiza bag particularly suspicious, given that they contained her last few handover notes before she was taken off the unit, and she would likely have had an Ibiza bag lying around at that time. To me it feels like she just gathered up whatever was lying on a table that week and shoved it in a bag, where it remained.
The box marked “keep”, I’d need to know more about. Because it contains sheets which don’t appear just now to have any relevance. It feels to me like some kind of residual papers in a box that got caught up in some stuff/papers which was genuinely to be kept. Perhaps stuff that was being returned to her parents during her move. Eg hi Lucy there were a few bits of paper from work in that box, I’ve left it in your cupboard.
I’d like to know whether the other handover notes found in the Morrisons bag related to families she was regularly searching for on FB. That stuff does feel like it’s been set aside, compared to the 200 other handover notes. Is it so she can remember the names of the families she’s interested in for future reference?
On the FB searching more generally, I don’t get the impression she’s a grief vampire, I think it’s another extension of her seeking validation and praise. For example, if she looks up a child she cared for on their birthday, or Christmas, she might be hoping to see something like “we are so grateful to the nurses…”. Or, if it’s a baby that passed away, maybe she’s looking for a photo of the memory box, or a photo she took of the baby, or some other thing that somehow validates she’s had a lasting impact.
JMO. Irrespective of guilt.