Well, you're preaching to the choir. In saying that it was an accident, I'm not suggesting he's not guilty. I'm saying that I don't know he really intended to kill her. I could see a scenario where he wanted to do inappropriate things with her sexually, and drugging her was the way he intended to do it. It went wrong - he gave her too much, or a lethal combination - and she died. He freaked out, and everything that happened afterwards was his attempt at covering it up.
From what everyone is saying, he sounds like he's a much more gregarious person than he's appeared in the few media interactions he's had since Susan turned up missing. I just don't think he's as dumb as he appears in these bizarre interviews. And I find it hard to believe that a person with any intelligence could premeditatedly come up with such an incredibly-lame story to try and get away with murder. That's why I kind of think this was the best he could do with the situation, as it existed the moment he found her dead.
And I hope you read my point about his tears. You sounded a little defensive, but then you basically reiterated the point I had made - that any tears he shed were for his own sorry lot in life, and not because he, in some way, misses his wife. The point I made about his Mormon background was simply to show how sitting in Sacrament meeting, it probably hit him that he had done something that had irreparably ruined his eternal future. Any tears shed would be from that realization - nothing more.
Anyway, maybe I misread your defensiveness? From what I've read from you, you and I have very similar feelings about Josh Powell. I wouldn't ever defend him, because what he's done makes me almost literally sick. But I am interested in what happened, and why it happened. My post was simply to give a little perspective on his LDS background.