Thanks Mindmatters—I think you must mean Daisymae. My kitties are well.
Here's the raw, unedited Troy Hayden interview. It's ~47 minutes.
[video=youtube;AFIfLA0LmbM]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AFIfLA0LmbM[/video]
Wow. I don't know where to start.
What a liar! If my freedom was in the balance and my sister (I don't actually have a sister but you know what I mean) and friends and photo evidence on a damaged (but probably recoverable) hard drive existed you could bet every penny you had that they would be brought up in court to corroborate my testimony!
Secondly she's lying about the domestic violence. I've never heard a woman who has lived through domestic violence, myself included (10 years until I got free), who when asked for advice for other women wouldn't say "leave!" Women who are being abused do not say the biggest piece of advice is to "document it". Sure that is important if you can, and if you are planning to go to the police. But she said "even if you aren't going to leave, or go to the police" (or something like that). Documenting abuse isn't going to help if you aren't planning to give that documentation to someone. The main thing I've ever heard anyone say is to leave. It's the advice I have given to others myself.
Also she cared about how Travis appeared? How others thought of him? Fine, ok. Go to Yreka, and never see him again if he's abusing you so badly. Why, if you are being beaten, and he's a paedophile, and he's so mean, why would you keep that relationship going when you live over a thousand miles away? My ex-husband lives around 15 miles away. I've not spoken to or seen him in 10 years! I moved from my home town to somewhere else because he wouldn't leave me alone and it was triggering my PTSD. I couldn't cope with it, I'm struggling now to even write this, never mind anything else and I'm 10 years since seeing him. She apparently has PTSD from the domestic violence (no she doesn't!) and yet she can not only keep on talking to him, she goes to visit him? Not a chance!
Then she's got a dissociative fog all wrong. She wants us to believe that she remembers being attacked by Travis, being body slammed, running and then shooting him then nothing more til she snapped out of it in the desert? No chance. That's "movie" amnesia. That's what Hollywood says dissociative amnesia is. She would either a. Remember absolutely none of it from the moment Travis attacked her (but usually that kind of blankness comes back at a later date) or b. Remember bits and pieces and not logical pieces but snapshots. She also wants us to believe that during this amnesia she managed to drive in entirely the right direction she was intending to go in anyway? When she had never driven from Mesa to Utah? She suddenly comes back from the fog, in the middle of the desert, and instead of being panicked and wondering where she is and how she has blood on her she manages to clean herself up, and keep on driving in the right direction to Utah? Imagine it yourself. If she truly was having dissociative amnesia she wouldn't know where she was. If you suddenly "came to" and found yourself in the middle of a desert what would your first reaction be? Surely it would be panic? Why am I? How do I find out where I am? Which way do I go to find out where I need to be? Yet she just cleans herself up and drives on to Utah? No way!
This makes me so angry! I've spoken before about my experiences with BPD, PTSD and battered women's syndrome. And the more I see of CMJA the more I'm convinced she's not been abused, she's not got PTSD and any BPD personality traits she has are part of a sociopathic and Narcicistic personality.
