I will make this post then pack the laptop up, my daughter might be getting her liver transplant finally and I am headed for a long stay at the hospital with her. Please pray for her.
I know a couple of people who are very narcissistic and vain. I mean, very. Is it possible that everything in Terris world was fine, she was still a consummate liar but all, but was mentally "well", when she was body building size and was looking wonderful. Then she gets pregnant and her body changed, drastic change from how she "was" Maybe what we are dealing with is not PPD, but after the birth of her baby, after about 6 mos and shes still not back to her pre-baby size, is feeling dumpy perhaps, is stuck inside with a baby and a 5 (or so) year old kid plus her own who was around 14, and maybe no way or no time to get to the gym, she becomes depressed over her body image and might even have suspected Kaine of having an affair out of insecurity about her own appearance. She looks worlds away from how she looked back when she was in that contest. Maybe AD put on the weight she was trying so desperately to lose. Perhaps even without custody of Kyron, Desiree was a far superior mother than Terri was, and that ate at her also. Shes doing all the "work", but Kyron is older now and increasingly loves his biological Mom, and seems like Desiree gets "all the glory".
Suspecting, real or imagined, that Kaine was interested in someone else, knowing if they split she would be left high and dry with no prospects at a real FT teaching job (the economy plus her child endangerment business) she went off the deep end and tried to hire landscaper to kill Kaine. Both for insurance money and for paybacks for the real or imagined affair. When that plan backfired, she was already way deep into irrational thinking...then her own teenage son is sent to live with grandparents, for whatever reason, perhaps the first and only time she had been separated from her firstborn child. Now shes stuck at home with a toddler and a child that isn't hers, even though she has raised him since he was practically the age baby K is now. She has a working husband who possibly spends less and less attention on her, and what time he is home is spent with the children, and you would expect he would give a lot of love and attention to his own biological child, Kyron. Maybe Terri blames Kaine for her teenage son being sent away. "You have no love lost for MY child, I have no love lost for YOURS". And she begins to think of her problems (still haven't figured out why)and that maybe getting rid of Kyron is the answer to whatever her major malfunction is. Maybe to be one less kid in the house or maybe to "get back" at Kaine. She wants to compete in the July bodybuilding contest (a lofty goal, IMO). Maybe things are not so frequent in the intimacy department with Kaine anymore. She continues to suspect infidelity, and thinks if she could only get her perfect body back, her life would return to normal again. Shes no longer turning heads like she did when she was think and bodybuilding, now shes just another "plain old mother" blending into the crowds. Shes used to being in the spotlight, being stared at, and she wants that again. At any cost.
How she makes the leap to doing away with Kyron as being the answer to *any* of this I have not figured out. Maybe her mind snapped at some point.
Maybe she was taking medications for something and it affected her rational thinking. Maybe some kind of speed (maybe an amphetamine Rx, even) to help her lose the weight and also get through day after day of the same old, same old. Not acceptable for a narcissist, it isn't about "her her her" any longer. Of course she will not harm her own precious child. The most logical person to go is Kyron, she can't kill Kaine w/out help, but Kyrons a much easier target.
I still don;t discount the theory that she was posioning Kaine, as another poster suggested a few days ago,and maybe Kyron got the wrong plate that morning, and by the time the science fair was almost over, Kyron was not feeling well and she realized she had accidently poisioned him, not Kaine. She rushes Kyron out of the school and sometime after getting him into the truck, he has a seizure and dies from the poison. (I have a hard time imagining her doing actually physical violence to Kyron, I really do) So she disposes of his body in a place familiar to her that shes reasonably sure he won't be found in. Drives to Sauvie w/ cell phone knowing darn well the pings will place her there and not where she has actually put Kyron. If she was smart enough to go to Sauvie to throw off where she actually put Kyron then I don't know why she wasn't smart enough to make a purchase from a fruit stand or store on the island, as a pretense for LE later as to why she went there.
How she kept a straight face and did her academy award winning performance at the bus stop that day with Kaine is beyond my wildest imagination. Knowing damn well he was not on the bus...poor Kaines panic and she stands there through it all acting the concerned "mother".
-Why, tho? Kyron was getting ready to leave THAT DAY for extended time away with his own natural mother & step father, why did she have to do away with him when he was going to be gone anyway? She would have had her own perfect little nuclear family to herself, for awhile anyway. I don;t understand that part.
When Kaine and DY appear to be a cohesive unit against her early on, when her own husband has suspicions about her even before he knows of the murder for hire business, and she feels like the real "third wheel" all of a sudden, with Kaine and Desiree uniting in grief over the loss of their child, she feels even more alone, abandoned, and certainly not attractive next to the (IMO) stunning Desiree. Now she has to play-act 24/7 as the grieving step-mom, but how? She takes her cues from crying Desire, we all saw that at the presser. Maybe she feels like Desirees husband, being LE himself, is a threat to her "safety" after what she has done. He will figure her out, she fears. She looked insecure, out of place, and unsure how she was supposed to be reacting to it all around the time of the first presser.. Kaine is distant from her as Desiree has already infomed him that she has no doubt Terri is involved in Kyrons disappearance. Kaine is putting 2+2 together in his mind, hence his behavior at presser, comforting Terri but only perfunctory on his part, he is actually almost repelled by her next to him. God only knows what heated conversations occured over the days after wards in that house. Kaine is now sure she is involved, gets news from LE about the lawn man hit scheme, and that's the final straw. He takes the baby and leaves her alone in the house with only her parents. Her teenage son is even spirited away from all the madness after just one day home for a visit. Divorce and RO filed. Pressers with Desiree and himself, or with DY, Tony and himself releasing statements. Terri left out of it all and loking guilty to the entire nation and community.
Shes standing out like a sore thumb as she knows it. She decides best course of action is to say nothing, go nowhere, maybe it will all blow over (she is no longer capable of rational thought).
Shes forced to get an atty., something she had out off thinking that by not getting one she would look innocent. After all innocent people wouldn't need a lawyer, right? Even alone at home with her own parents, her father suspects her and says as much the few times he has talked to the public, a 50/50 chance she will be arrested.
Now her world is crashing down around her, definately not part of whatever plan she may have had. Kaine is making moves to have her removed form her home. Her precious baby is gone from her and she realizes she is in such deep chit she will probably never get custody of her own daughter. Every way she turns she is the villan. Maybe she reads the stuff written about her online which further fuels her paranoia. Maybe her parents are pressuring her dailyto tell the truth. Nobody is on her side anymore. She knows even her atty doesn't really believe shes not involved, she has NO ONE.
She feels by clamming up she can forestall the inevitable. Having not been arrested yet, and Kyron still not found, she has a glimmer of hope she might get away with this, although not as she had planned as she has lost her husband, her daughter, the respect of her teenage son, and now shes losing her house. Everything is out of her control now. She knows she should come clean but to do so will guarantee she is taken away and locked up, the loss of the one thing she has left, her freedom.
Just my newest working theory. What do you think?
I'm headed down the road but will be checking in from time to time as the hospital has wifi, and I will be doing alot of sitting and waiting with my daughter. Thank God for the boards right now, a good distraction from whats hopefully coming for my daughter in the days ahead.
Please come home Kyron, we all care about you and want you home and safe so bad.
Please come clean and be a human being and tell where this little boy is Terri, and let her family get on with the grieving process.
abbie
