There's a Bible verse, I think in the Book of Proverbs, that says:
“Hope deferred makes the heart sick.”
I feel the same as you do, every day when I wake up and check the news, I’m crushed that he hasn’t been found. Dead or alive.
For some reason this case really has gotten to me. The one killer that had more of an impact on me was the Son of Sam serial killer. He was in my neighborhood, killing girls like me. I was 20 then, long brown hair and did kiss my fiancé in the car at night, which was his primary target. The last girl he killed was an acquaintance of mine.
This case had nothing to do with my neck of the woods and I’m not in peril from Brian. I guess just being a mother and grandmother, all missing children and adult children cause me pain, but this causes such frustration. Especially because of Brian’s actions and then his disappearance.