Hi Everyone
I have been reading everyone's thoughtful responses regarding the theories & psychology regarding JA and even TA. I have also watched the trial everyday. I would just like to point out that this forum has the most objective thoughts and I absolutely cannot read anymore discussions on most public forums because so many words are thrown around and these people seem not to understand or have the capacity to articulate the theories in which they present.
Obviously, TA was brutally killed & no one deserves to be butchered in that way. And what interests me the most is the alchemy between the two of them and how their personalities brought seemingly the worst out of each other. JA had a history of confronting those that crossed her and at the very least, completely immersing herself into the life of the one she's with. TA had a history of being abandoned and abused physically and emotionally and came from a history of addiction. Though he rose himself up through his childhood, it seems as though he became addicted to her. She fed his sexual appetite and she knew it. She clearly had boundary issues and within record time became a Mormon. I believe she is super passive-aggressive and deviant in the way in which she melts into different personas and her blunted affect is so strange and hard to understand. I also think Travis didn't treat her as he would have treated someone he respected.
I apologize for the comparison, but TA reminds me a lot of my ex-husband in so much as my Ex-husband is extremely charming, extremely successful, so absolutely sweet to those who work for him and to those who he doesn't really know. We were together for 8 years and people always told me how lucky I was to have him as my husband, and what an amazing person he was: Little did they know that I finally went to talk to a psychologist about our relationship and he diagnosed me with PTSD and Spousal Abuse Syndrome. I already have had GAD since I was 5, so I'm maybe more sensitive... Anyway, he is an alcoholic and he lies and assumes characters that he thinks people want him to be. We had a horrific cycle of abuse. I thought I was going insane and broke out in rashes and was diagnosed with a form of Lupus. I was constantly so freaked out by him and when he came home from work, I just wanted to die. He controlled all the finances and wouldn't let me work, but complained to all his friends that I was lazy. He even convinced me that I was someone I was not. What I'm trying to say, is that he too led a double life. And it absolutely drove me crazy. I told him once that I wished he could treat me as nice as his employees and I was his wife. He hated his mom. I never met her. He hated most of his family. He has a few close friends, but he's not even honest with them. I always thought that I must have done something wrong because he seemed so nice to everyone but me. But then I figured out it was the exact opposite. Who he was with me was actually who he was. He wasn't the super nice and seemingly loving and thoughtful guy he was with everyone else. He was that nice to me after he hurt me, and I loved that.
Enough about my life. I just kinda see the parallel between TA and my ex regarding the double-life issue. It seems that TA presented himself sooooo differently to others than the way he was with JA. I don't have much, if at all, any compassion for JA because I was never violent and I got away and my ex-husband is still intact and living. But, I do understand how frustrating and confusing it is to be with someone who shows different faces to different people. And it was emotionally abusive for me.
I wish we or someone could figure out JA's PD. I do think she has one. But it's "not otherwise specified" because she demonstrates bits and pieces of many PD's but not one or two most significantly. A co morbidity is, IMO is also relevant when evaluating her, but she's so different, coming up with a sound theory of her personality is difficult.
I have a few questions:
When did TA become a Mormon?
Why can't either side discuss or say the word "Premeditation"?
How many people think she premeditated his murder/or just snapped?
I went through all the blood spatter, studied the realistic sequence of events of his killing/murder, and finally came up with a theory about what I think happened that would "fit" with the forensic analysis... And I will share it if anyone wants to discuss it.
Ok, thanks, and sorry for such a long post but I have been holding this info in, waiting for the right place in which to share my thoughts and kinda personal opinions and theories regarding this case.