You get the hang of it.
This horrible nightmare of a crime had a long overdue, but positive outcome. If you focus on a goal of seeing justice for the victims and their family and friends, you should feel relieved. Jake pleaded guilty to every single charge filed against him. Nothing was exaggerated by the state, it was all accurate.
It's traumatic to finally learn all the details of the crimes, the planning, the lies the collateral damage. At the same time you have to appreciate the relief now felt by the investigators, prosecutors and victim's families to finally lay down their burdens and expose the killers for who they are.
Mostly, it's about all of them, not us.
If it makes us feel better, we saw and experienced only a small fraction of the trauma experienced by the survivors and those who worked on the investigation. I hope they've all found peace and support.
We did our little part, hopefully, by keeping the case and the facts before the public, rallying support for those not here to defend themselves. We've tried to do it in the most thoughtful, constructive and supportive way possible.