In this video below, if you listen starting at 4:30 you can hear a clip of Justin Devaris talking about his interaction with Oscar that night. It's consistent with Dr. Stipp's testimony that OP was making all sorts of statements to God that night... take me away, help me, I'll dedicate my life to you...
I know this is highly subjective and all we can do is theorize on it, but in my belief, OP was praying to God because he knew exactly what he did. I do not subscribe to the belief that Oscar was a monster or cold-blooded person walking around waiting to kill. But I definitely subscribe to the belief that he was capable of killing.
I think he is a man that has some very deep-seeded issues and they had clearly become worse in recent years. Just look at those months leading up to the killing...
In late September, he shoots his gun through the sunroof after getting in to an argument with police officers.
In October, he and Samantha are having a really rough go of it in their relationship.
Around that time, he confronts van der Burgh in a public place and rattles the man enough so that he feels the need to legally address it.
Oscar flips out and violently threatens Mark Batchelor. Anybody who has seen the size of this man knows that you would have to be nutty to threaten him. He is also seen in this video clip below.
Oscar ends up getting whacked on the head at a party because once again he's shooting his mouth off, or as he likes to put it "diffusing" the situation. Of course, he has no idea who hit him resulting in stitches. That is a laughable lie. He can't say who it was because the incident has been suppressed, once again.
In January, he mysteriously shoots off a gun in a busy restaurant and evades responsibility for it.
Also in January, he is having angry public tantrums causing Reeva to send those emails to him saying she's upset and at times afraid.
Many of the people he was close to Darren, Justin, Sam G... basically have nothing to do with him anymore.
To me, there is a CLEAR pattern of a man on the edge. I don't subscribe to the idea that he was a physical abuser, in the traditional sense of that word. I know there are many ways to interpret abuse. I do think he was a self-absorbed a-hole who also had the ability to charm the socks off of women. So I suppose that could fall in to the emotional abuse category, being that one minute he is being loving and then the next he is chewing them out, blaming them and then asking for forgiveness. I do see signs of this.
I've seen people say on this topic that there is no evidence to suggest that Oscar was capable of intentionally killing her and I just wildly disagree. Based on what we have learned about him, and add in his passion and recklessness for guns, it is a no brainer to me that he had the ability to shoot somebody in a heated situation. If it wasn't Reeva, I think at some point somebody else would have ended up hurt or dead.
I think he was praying to God that night because he knew exactly what he did.
Oscar Pistorius What Really Happened - YouTube