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She said she believed the trust and consultants - Dr Ravi Jayaram and Dr Stephen Brearey - were blaming her in harming the babies.
She felt she had had a good working relationship with the two consultants.
She said: "They were trying to make it my problem, because I was there."
She said she did not have any issues with the two consultants, and had a professional relationship with them.
She had spoken to her 'best friend', a nursing colleague, about some of the issues, but not about the 'kill myself' feelings she had.
Letby said she had been banned from contacting anyone, and the redeployment to another unit in the hospital 'would have gone on her record'.
Letby said she had "lost everything", and had lost being part of a "good ursing team", who were "like a family".
She said the note was a way of getting her feelings on paper, and this note was written "all in one session".
Letby adds: "I didn't kill them on purpose."
She said she was worried: "Other people would perceive me as evil if I had missed anything".
"I felt so guilty that they [mum and dad] had to go through this."
Asked about the 'kill them on purpose' note, Letby replies: "I didn't kill them on purpose."
Letby said at the time she felt there may have been practices and competencies in clinical care which she may have missed, which led to the deaths of babies. She said, having reviewed her practices, she did not feel she had failed on the competencies.
She said she was the first member of her family to go to university, and her parents were disappointed she had been removed from the neonatal unit. She confirms she had told him.
She said she was "career focused" and was worried that the investigation would lead to her losing her job and "change what people would think of me".
Asked about the 'I AM EVIL I DID THIS' note: "That's how it all made me feel at the time...not intentionally, but I felt if my practice was not good enough, then it made me feel like an evil person..."
She adds she 'wouldn't deserve to have children' on the basis she had been redeployed to another unit.
She said the trust had redeployed her as they felt her competencies were an issue.
She said she felt, at the time, she had caused the disappointments. She asked 'Why me' on the note as she wondered why she was the only one to undergo the redployment.
The trial of Lucy Letby, who denies murdering seven babies at the Countess of Chester Hospital neonatal unit and attempting to murder 10 more, is…
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