A transcript here of Letby's police interviews regarding her post-it note, which she says was written in July 2016, with detailed context given for every line written, when she was redeployed because she was told her competences needed to be tested, before she'd been investigated, two months before she heard what the accusations were (in Sep 2016), almost a year before police were involved. She explains why she thought police might become involved and that she hadn't talked to anyone about her feelings, not even her best friend or her parents.
In her own words, as read to the jury.
Anyone who says she was advised to write down her feelings by a psychologist, when she wasn't even seeing one at that time, is creating a defence for her, one she hasn't used herself in the witness box, in the police station, or in her defence statement. No one came forward to her defence team during her trial to testify to this. What would motivate anyone to literally make up a defence for a convicted serial killer?
In September 2016, Letby says, she received a letter from the Royal College of Nursing about the "true reason" for her redeployment, that she was being held responsible for the deaths of babies on the neonatal unit.
She says she was putting in a grievance procedure about being redployed.
She says she did not know, at that time, how many babies she was being held responsible for.
She says she felt it was "sickening" to be held as a person responsible for the deaths of babies.
"I don't think you can be accused of anything worse than that."
"I just changed as a person, my mental health deteriorated, I felt isolated...from my friends on the unit."
Recap: Lucy Letby trial, Tuesday, May 2 - defence begins