I see none of you know what it feels like to live a life like that. I find it appalling, how losely the terms psychopath/sociopath, narcissist, etc...are joked about on a daily basis.
Its difficult for me to understand why people have to attack one another and be hateful. There are easier ways to say, I think you've misunderstood, or let me try to help you understand, without having to bash one another
I'm a product of my environment and the words,
The effect on an infant of having little or no recognition through visual/auditory/tactile means is profound.
Thats putting it mildly. I work everyday on my self-esteem, and I know I have to stop taking the words I read tonight so personally.
Do the words "I love you" really mean anything? They're simply words. I believe God saved our world because he's more interested in our actions towards others.
Murder, raping, torture, lies, arguing and fighting were not a part of god's plan. Only we as human beings on this earth can change these negative patterns with all our will and might - and yes, some of those people need medication and some of those people are completely unreachable.
I understand exactly what sissi was saying. I could've chosen a different path, one of anger and revenge, but I didn't. If I could make one of those peaks and Valley charts, you'd see a majority of my life was spent in the valley, in the dungeon with the devil. It was my choice to pull myself out of it and I'm so thankful I did. :angel:
I see alot of clear thinking, responsible adults posting here who are very interested in talking about what happens to people who grow up in a disassociated world. I'm not the only one in my family whose suffered. The other two are much worse off than I am.
They both chose drugs in order to escape their world whereas I chose to dream about mansions, candyland and kind people who would rescue me at any given moment in time. It was a nice feeling to be able to dream those things.
This was my escape, because I thought reality sucked.
Reality gets better everyday as long as I don't tumble back down into that infamous valley.
I hope I don't get bashed for telling you the truth about the way my world was when I was a child. (If it makes any difference, I was born in the 50's):blushing: