Lulu67
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in less than a week i will be marking the 5 year unniversary (intentional) of the still birth of my son. he died either March 21st or 22nd, and was born sleeping March 23rd, 2008.
this time of year, since then, is incredibly difficult for me. i always feel very alone. what i read last night, brought to us by the ever wonderful and endearing KCL, made manifest by the love and generosity of BB, has made me feel alive and connected for the first time in a very long time..
as a matter of coincidence, the initials of the baby i lost are BB.
and this is the cover of the journal i started after i lost him...
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... the first journal entry is dated June 5, 2008.... the day after Travis was murdered.
there is something so potent in the symbolism of elephants and death, remembering and endurance... i decided to look up elephants and grief while thinking about this amazing connection between Travis' family and the gift giver, BB... i found this link and the following quote from that page:
"The plain truth is that elephants have a deep need to remember and mourn lost ones."
IBM... never forget.
elephants are very intelligent beings. they're gentle, protective, and playful...
add to that their ability to grieve the deaths of their kin.. we live in an incredible world.. one i have been avoiding for way too long now.
but now i remember that it isn't as scary as i have lead myself to believe. there are beautiful people who care so much that they push through their own pain to help others feel cared for, supported, loved, not alone.
thank you BB. thank you KCL. thank you Elephants.
(ps... this is version 5, or so, of this post... and i still feel like it's too long... but thank YOU for reading!)
Moonbird, I'm so sorry for the loss of your son, that must have been absolutely devastating. Your post was perfect, not too long at all. What a sweet reminder of him. I hope the next week or so is not too difficult for you - you're in my prayers.