Lucas Hernandez's mother: last six weeks 'have been hell'
As she wrote a letter to her son, Jamie Taylor spent a lot of time thinking about the last six weeks since her son, Lucas Hernandez, first went missing. She said she has spent every second of it thinking about her sons disappearance and said its been excruciating.
Its been hell, Taylor said. Im stuck in limbo. I cant go forward and I
I cant do anything until we find him.
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http://www.kake.com/story/37850445/lucas-hernandezs-mother-last-six-weeks-have-been-hell
I don't know how she held it together. How she found the strength or composure to show up, participate, let alone face a camera to open the wound where her heart is torn in two.
How any of us can ignore the madness in us that desperately whispers, 'This is all just a huge 'prank' played out on EG & JH for such selfishness; when they've been raked over it enough to really regret, repent, whoever has him will just turn him loose in a McDonalds like ok, lil guy- have fun now.'
I can carry worlds myself, but seeing whole & honest love shattered like a cheap trinket... not being able to end or alter that... is so ugly.
I've never had the luxury to afford such an innocent connection, and enjoy a cynical stoicism that allows me to face anything that may come, with practicality & panache.
It's abhorrent to observe those without that talent, denied reprieve.
I've tried giving her the benefit of the doubt. But I don't believe in my heart that she is innocent. That's a personal opinion. Everything that I have learned about her along with the few facts that seem to be very big clues, everything points to her. If I am wrong, I will personally write her an apology. But I don't fear that I will ever have to do that.
I watched Jamie do her little interview at the vigil tonight. You can see the pain in her face. REGARDLESS of anything else, you can tell she loved her son and that this is killing her. My heart goes out to her and all of Lucas's family. Stay strong guys.
Earlier today I was discussing Occam's razor with a friend of mine. Anyone familiar with it? I can never explain it right but I'll include the first paragraph of the explanation and a link about it here. Basically, it's this:
"The term Occam's razor refers to the philosophical idea or scientific principle that of any given set of explanations for an event occurring, it is most likely that the simplest one is the correct one. Occam's razor does not seek to offer complete and absolute proof, but to find the simplest probable answer to a question of why an event happened."
http://examples.yourdictionary.com/examples-of-occam-s-razor.html
It's a very interesting philosophical idea, to say the least. But it gets you thinking about this case. The obvious answer points to EG.
Sorry for the babble. I'm running on 2 hours of sleep. But everything I've said is IMO.
We're going to find him, Jamie. :heartbeat:
Its not that I dont want to find Lucas for anyone else, but Jaime has always been my focus and motivation to keep searching for Lucas. She could worship the devil, secretly have a crush on Adolf Hitler and snort fertilizer to get high (she doesnt of course) but it still wont change that shes a mom who deserves to know where her child is.
I think if anyone could be key to getting a confession from Emily, it would be Jaime.......not as a direct request, but from a trigger point perspective. I think one of the things that EG has needed the most is to redeem herself as a good parent. Lucas being with her gives Emily a legitimization in the public eye, in her mind of course. She thrives on that control of Lucas because she cant control whats happening with her older children. She needs to feel like a better mom than Jaime and it would really bother her for anyone to say otherwise. In situations like this, its not uncommon to hear stepmom and/or biological moms to say something like I may not be the best mom but Im definitely better than her. What EG fails to realize right now, is that Jaime wasnt forced to let her son live with his father like Emily was. Regardless of the situation, putting your childs needs over your own is what real mothers do. She made a heart wrenching decision that unfortunately went terribly wrong. When I hear negative comments made about JO, I get so frustrated because, for one, its uncalled for and very unfair, but for two, its exactly what Emily is wanting to hear. So to confess would never cross her mind as long as she thinks the public opinion of JO is so bad. But Id love to see how Emily would react if, all of a sudden, the support for Jaime would become positive instead. If people were to start praising Jaime for putting her childs needs above her own (which she should be praised for that anyway), saying its proof of a mothers unconditional love and comparing that to Emilys lack of doing the right thing, I think it would really get under her skin. She will want to refute that, so pressuring her to prove she loves Lucas unconditionally and give him a final resting place as what a good mom would do, they dont just want that for their children, they NEED it for them, might motivator her in that direction. Emily taking her chances with a jury if no body is ever found is a risky case to prosecute, but in my research, Im finding more and more no body child disappearances have a much better chance of getting a conviction. Kids dont have the right to walk away like adults do and if a child isnt in their legal home, then its a criminal situation (runaways, kidnapping, death, etc), reasonable doubt is less of a factor behind a childs absence. There just isnt an innocent reason for it. I also think EG would not want to be lumped in with Evan Brewers mom as well, she lied about her sons whereabouts and it took finding Evans body to arrest her. Thats what a bad mom does, good moms want their babies safe and at home. Good moms cant eat, sleep, grieve, heal, etc when their kids are missing, worrying about them-bad moms cant do any of those things when facing consequences for their own choices, only worried about themselves.
Emily also cant comprehend yet that this isnt gonna just go away, its going to follow her for the rest of her life. Shes going to have to look into her own childrens eyes and answer to them about their brother one day. She wont ever be able to repair any relationship with them until she comes clean. I love the quote People who have nothing to hide, hide nothing because the longer Lucas is hidden from us, the less likely it is for Emily to claim LHs death was an accident. His body is her proof and if a cause is undetermined homicidal violence, you cant differentiate between the two. Thats a huge gamble for her to make and the sentencing will reflect that-first degree murder carries life, normally without parole whereas taking a plea will allow her to have a life outside of prison one day. She only has one card to play here and shes running out of time to use it. Im thinking shes been pretty good about avoiding facing the consequences of her bad behavior in the past. The longer she cant manipulate or control the situation gets us one step closer to finding Lucas I think. EG is going to hold on to that power as long as she can, but hopefully she wont want anyone to take that power away from her and will talk.
One disgusting piece of information Ive learned is how parents in jail for murdering their own child will request permission to ATTEND THE FUNERAL!!!! Can you believe that? I havent seen many judges grant that request. Sorry, but my opinion is that the parents already had their childs funeral when they killed them, now its everyone elses turn to have one.
In case you havent noticed, my life philosophy is why say in 5 words what you can in 500. [emoji849]
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