so- my only Aunt called me today... and she has had so many losses that I am sure she sees thing from an older, wiser, or at least different perspective, but she is trying to tell me that I should put everything behind me, and come to some type of an agreement that works to have my mom back in my life. She said that she'll die someday and that we can't just leave things like this.
I told her that I have kids to raise and I don't feel safe. She said that whatever was done, or not done- we have to put things in a place that we can all deal with and just move on. (like not eating at her house- meet at a park to eat.)
I asked her if during all of these deaths, and losing her daughter to this also, if she has ever heard my mom cry- and she was quiet for a good 10 seconds, and then she said.. "no".
I told her that kinda creeped me out, then she said... wait.. wait- she cried one time when she was talking about my dad's death, but it really wasn't about my dad she was crying, it was something about missing her hometown of LaBelle.
I asked her if my mom ever is upset about losing me over this at all, and she said, "well, she doesn't go that far, but she does tell me she's glad that I keep tabs on you."
She also said, "I know a lot of things about your mom that I will never ever say- I've known her since I was 5 years old. So, I know all of your concerns, but we need to find a way to come to an agreement."
Love my Aunt, but the idea doesn't sound responsible.