I can say with utmost certainty, that if my precious daughter was dead, and trial was going on, my head would not be thinking "film the news crew" while I was on break from trial. I see NO grief or remorse or concern in her face whatsoever. I really think she is worse than her partner. A mother would DIE for her child. Not this one.
I am really staring to hate this one. IMO JMO as always
I have tried hard to work her out, from observing her behaviour in the dock, and also from the information in the family court proceedings and other sources such as her texts, letters, diary entries, and his references to her during his own testimony.
She lies, just like him. So whatever she is going to say on the witness stand has to be viewed with scepticism. Lies we know about -
1. her benefit fraud conviction somewhere around 2009/10,
2. her false names to check in for second child's birth, her pregnancy terminations and other hospital admissions in 2013,
3. her police interviews after Ellie's death and later admission to perverting the course of justice,
4. her staged 999 emergency call - even going so far as to carry out CPR on Ellie's body - that has to be the biggest crime and insult to her child's body and life known to man. Not actually summoning life saving treatment when she was first available to and then falsely portraying an attempt to save her life - knowing she has been left laying dead on the floor for over 2 hours.
5. accusing the taxi driver of lying that she told him her child was seriously ill. He knows she said that because that is the only reason he accepted her fare, he didn't want to go to Sutton because of the previous night's storm chaos on the roads.
6. cutting up cake and pretending to her other child that she should go and wake up Ellie. Setting her own 4 year old child up in the cover up of the death of her own big sister!
7. denying she changed her clothes, or washed her bloodied shirt.
8. Telling work colleagues that BB had gone away and Ellie was being looked after by some unknown godfather.
9. Now trying to cast suspicion on her own parents that Ellie suffered untreated head injuries / skull fractures while in their care.
10. Accusing the school of victimising her and BB, to deflect attention from their growing concern about Ellie's frequent absences.
11. Being violently assaulted by BB and telling the police he had never hurt her.
12. Saying she heard Ellie playing in her room when we know she cannot have been.
Ok, I'm sure I could think of more but I think I've established that we aren't going to hear the truth when she takes the oath.
So I turn next to her own position as a victim of BB's physical and verbal abuse. I think I can see how he does it. In his text messages he says he can't abide her, he loathes everything about her. In court he says he hated her with a vengeance BUT he does love her, they are good as best friends, and he was grossly unfair to her, she is blameless, and he can see why she was behaving the way she was. He takes away from her and then he gives her a little something back, a small glimmer of love.
She is deluded, absolutely deluded. She is there only for those little glimmers. If there weren't any she would be on to her next abuser. That's the way it goes. Find someone who treats you like you're not deserving of love but if there is a small hope, see if you can change that around. Her internet search history from 3 months before she met BB is proof of that too - "I'm addicted to a man who doesn't love me". So she is locked in this dysfunctional lifestyle where she goes after men who don't love.
Now I turn to her behaviour in court, this teenage rebelliousness, bubble gum blowing and talking out when she should be silent in court. I am convinced she has not matured beyond that teenage mindset. She had a terrible relationship with her father and that is her unresolved quest in her relationships. I believe she thought, with the mind of a 15 year old, if I have his baby, he will love me, he will grow to love me, we can play happy families. Her babies were not born to be loved, they were born to be pawns, a means of getting love for herself. When first one went into care, she tried again, and when that one went into care she kept on going. Not because she wanted to be a parent or wanted her children but because she was trying to trap him into a relationship he couldn't leave without also leaving his children.
That is where I think she is - she never wanted her children. Real love is not in her range of feelings, she has no motherly instincts. She is playing at mummies and daddies, without being the mummy, that is just a sideshow, wanting only to be the alluring temptress to him. Getting her breasts enlarged, praying for a boy because that might work, it might be the key to getting loved.
I am not excusing her. Far from it. I am just trying to make sense of her. I think her failures to Ellie were equal to his. It's a shame she isn't facing the same charges, because cruelty doesn't seem enough. She virtually conspired in Ellie's death. She could not put Ellie's life first. Everything she did that day was to save herself and BB. She should never be allowed anywhere near her own surviving child.